I want cake.

Lately, I've been having a difficult time with my fusion belly dance class. There are a lot of reasons for this, and I could spend this whole post complaining about the parts that aren't living up to my expectations (but I'm not.)

Now, I've had these problems from the start, but there were enough pros to outweigh the cons for the most part. When I was frustrated by the teaching style of the instructor, I could remind myself that at least I was learning something new even if the process was difficult.

That justification is getting harder and harder to accept. The things I thought were fresh and new six months ago, are now just the same old things we did the last two choreographies. Not that I expect dance class to present something shiny and new every session, but when there's no icing, you still want cake. I'm missing some cake here.

But, every week (almost) I still show up.

Here’s the thing, I’ve taken classes from three different teachers in this area, and none of them worked for me. Between scheduling, distance, quality of instruction, style of dancing and of teaching, I haven’t found the right fit. I settled for this class because it’s convenient and it’s fusion, which were two of my top factors for picking a regular class.

There are plenty of reasons why I should have moved on already, but despite my lack of enthusiasm, there are definite reasons to stay that go beyond the convenience factor.

In the meantime, I'll have to try to embrace the experience for what it is and not focus on what it isn't. There are things to be learned even if it isn't strictly bellydance, and I'm not talking about moves.